aww..now so bored.. haiix..some idiot wan to c my report card.. dowan dowan.. with tt ugly grades she suere bu shuang mi 1 lo.. everytime there attitude.. i rly don like it.. wat kind of shiit-ass is that wen she jus reach home jiu nag.. aargh.. im jus thoroughly n utterly tired of her naggings.. worst than parrot.. den somemore cant shuddap one.. there was a reason y i hated her til tis range.. it wasnt a moment of anger.. it was purely feelings that were accumulated.. it started from a young age bah.. constantly being neglected as i was the eldest.i was to perform every single task to their expectation.I was to meet their expectation and set good examples... but other than others.. mabbie they nvr felt it was sth i couldnt do , couldnt achieve.. it was demoralising.. it was tiring to get scolded for sth u couldnt reach.. eventually, i feel confined.. locked up as i hav to report where i am everywhere i go.. the more i wanted to go against them.. i even asked my mom b4, " u love 妹妹more than mi isit ? "y is she like, spared the cane? i asked her that when i was in primary school.. its becux i no longer felt cared, tts y i refuse to be closed to her and tell her my tots..i don wan to let her in anymore.. jus felt that i would get betrayed any moment.. that's y oni my closest frens and dears could b told about my 心事..at least wen u no longer hav sth, u wouldnt lose it.. cant hurt anymore.. therefore no niid to cry.. i rather trust frens then anyone in my family.. i feel exposed,its as if someone will tattletale on mii.. mii and my parents hav age gap, their tots are a little backwards, they like to put words into my mouth, so even if i have problems, i would not go to them as they would mistake wat i say.. as u noe.. speakin the same sentence in different tone can give u veri different meaning.. adults like to hear it the negative way as they don rly believe that kids like mi has done any good..
after puttin some serious tots in.. i have decided that i am not a good gerl.. how many times in life have i learnt frm my mistakes.. i like to run away frm my mistakes, i don like to face them, its as if everytime i face them i usually fly into a rage or jus some uncontrollable sobx tt does not jus last a day or two..逃避原本就不是解决的方法，可是我就是选择这么做，现在开始后悔有点太迟了。每次都像一个人的走在路上，表面上好像不寂寞了，但是心里就没有把握。 i oni can say sorry to those whom i have hurt.. its 1 way to shield myself frm those unwanted fears 说到底，一句话，人是自私的 sorry
HIDDEN TRUTH.2:41 AM
PROFILE
J U S T I N A there's nothing wrong with my name.
If you think you know me, read my blog and think again. I'm imperfect and I'm Lovin' It.
I'm the only witness and the only person who can judge my life. Born into this world on 12 JULY 1991
Student of TP BUSINESS PROCESS AND SYSTEMS ENGINEERING
